Beginning..

I joined a gym. This is new to me as I am a plump girl, one of those girls who, if I were to fill out a profile on on a dating site, I would describe myself as "curvy" and "full figured" to make it sound somewhat endearing. I am also diabetic...I would love for that to go away. Thus the gym membership. Now, something you must know about me is that I am extremely stubborn. It has taken me years to build up the nerve to workout in front of people but now that I have made up my stubborn mind I have to go. The first week was fine. No one paid attention to each other so that is perfect. I was finally starting to feel more comfortable when last Wednesday night I was on the stationary bike (kicking major butt by the way!) when I look up and see a ton of people in normal clothes and carrying Bibles. Then it hits me, there is a church that meets at the rec center every Sunday and every Wednesday and this church is full of people that have known me since I was a kid. Suddenly these people that I know start walking by and gawking at me like I am a monkey on display! If that monkey were sweating like a pig, panting like a dog, and a face so red it would stop traffic. I put my head down, pretending to talk to my roommate on the bike beside me. I made it through though and I feel victorious...it's the small things in life. I have also started counting calories. That's a treat. Everything has a million calories so I guess I am left with broccoli, water, and the occasional apple. Yum. Though yesterday I was in the break room at work and I just happened to peruse the nutritional information for a bag of chili cheese Fritos only to find they had practically the exact same value as my "healthy" breakfast bars that I have been choking down for the past week. I threw the bar in my drawer and enjoyed the Fritos with a smile on my face. When all is said and done though, I've lost 6 pounds so the misery is worth it!